Terrible...........

Very long time i'm not create this blog. I'm busy with my another blogs. I have many of story there. Happy, sad, happy, sad...... but sad is too many. Even in here. I'm so confuse, really i'm confuse. My sadness always came everytime. I have many of broblems in my life. I tried to forget them. But, i have another problem thats came from my self. Not very big problem but now i fell that problem will be the big problem for me.
I don't how to tell about them. I felt, now i'm very foolish and really stupid. Domething bad happen 'couse my foolish. In several itme, when i'm in Elementary high school... i'm a clever and dilligent student. Start in junior high school, i became adult girl. I have many problem, and some problem came from my family. And i can't concentrate in my study. So, litle by litle i'm so lazy. Then in high school too, same i to be a stupid student. My sadness so deep, my familys problem so......and.......
I'm so stress, so i dare to leave my family, i went to Jakarta. Far from my family. Becouse i fell terrible in home and ofcourse very borred. I found a job. I can litle forgot about my family problems, but a new problems came from my job. Very bad, and i'm not happy. And any problems came and came. I can't bear that again. I want go away, far from there. And now here.... time brought me here,korea. FAr from my city especially my family, my home town. I don't know what happend in there now? Becouse i far from anything there. I far from any problems in there. i can relaks in this time but when i'll come back to my country i'll meet all about that again. Funny, very funny. I don't know how can i bear. Therefor, in here i have some problem too.
I tried to bear that with relaks think, i don't care. I tried to enjoy anything in here with nice smile, althugh sometimes i cried. This wanna be a good memories. especially in life. And good experience.
Only one, what to be a big problem. I have problem in my mind. I don't know why, i become stupid. Difficult to remember something important. Very terrible. stress, really stress. In my mind only problems fill. I want to forget them............